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Can one blog change the world?

I am not sure. Don’t think this one well-not the whole world-at least. But maybe it can change mine. And maybe that’s enough.

This blog is selfish. Not in a bad way, but in a necessary way. It’s a reminder that I can do what I set out to do. That I can take the mess of thoughts swirling in my head and shape them into something coherent. Something that makes sense. Something that feels like me.

It’s a journey toward self-discovery.

Sometimes I start writing and I’m surprised by where one idea takes me-how far down the rabbit hole I go, how much I uncover. It’s like peeling back layers I didn’t know were there.

Yes, it’s selfish.

But is there anything wrong with becoming more attuned to myself before I try to save the world?

Through this blog, I’ve found courage. I’ve taken on new challenges. I’ve learned-every day-from others. I have been made to think about things I used to take for granted. And I wonder how far I’d be now if I had started reading and writing the moment I created it.

But here’s the thing:

Because of this blog, I can tell my daughter that it’s doable. That she can chase what she sets out to do.

I can encourage a friend to finally go after that thing they’e been putting off.

I can stop feeling like a fraud when I tell people to follow their joy-because now, I’m doing the same.

So no, I still don’t think I can change the world.

But maybe I can be a ball of sunshine to those around me. Maybe I can encourage them to do the things that light them up. And maybe they’ll become balls of sunshine too.

Because you can’t pour from an empty cup.

And this blog? It’s how I fill mine