I don’t know if these things we’re finding are really the things we lost, or if they are just lying around waiting for whoever passes by first. Like the birds and the worms, or talent and hard work. You know, rewards for those who show up.
What I found, I didn’t even know I had lost. Or maybe I lost it so long ago I forgot it was gone. And it wasn’t just sitting there waiting for me. It’s still a work in progress.
Wouldn’t it be great if we could get notifications when we start losing ourselves. A little ping like a tweet or a breaking news alert. A reminder that says : Hey, you’re drifting. Time to re-align before you go too far.
Instead, the signs are subtle. You feel something’s off, but by the time you pay attention, you’re miles away from home. And worse, you’ve brought people along- people you love, who love you, without realizing how lost you are.
I, for one, didn’t realize how far gone I was until I started doing some work. Work that made me realize that life doesn’t always build you. You know- what doesn’t kill you and stuff. Sometimes it takes. It takes joy. Trust. Takes the fight out of you. A heartbreak can steal pieces you’ll never get back. A broken dream can rob you of the ability to dream again. And the worst part? You don’t notice right away.
And when you finally do, the pieces might not be where we dropped them( if we even know where that is to begin with)
But here’s what I did find. And I’m keeping: The desire to keep on. To try again. To dream again. To keep at it.
Have I found all the pieces- no. And maybe I never will. But doesn’t stop me from looking. And who knows? I might even find things I didn’t know I needed.
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